Mark 5:25-29
And a woman was there who had been subject to bleeding for twelve years. She had suffered a great deal under the care of many doctors and had spent all she had, yet instead of getting better she grew worse. When she heard about Jesus, she came up behind Him in the crowd and touched His cloak, because she thought," if I just touch His clothes, I will be healed." Immediately her bleeding stopped, and she felt in her body that she was freed from her suffering.
Have you felt so unworthy of something and yet you were desperate to get what you needed? It's kind of backwards sounding yet there's a lot of truth to this in our individual lives.
There is no name to this woman and could very well be you or I.
She had no control of the excessive bleeding that was happening to her and as she spent time and money on doctors who had no cure for her disease. The bleeding kept her isolated and alone. She was considered unclean due to the bleeding. She wasn't allowed to be out in public and this was due to Jewish laws that were set in place.
But Jesus came to town and it makes me wonder how many stories she had heard over the course of her twelve years that kept her faith alive to the point where if she ever met Him that She knew who He was. She came behind Jesus and that gives me the understanding that she was not only embarrassed she was ashamed of herself and yet her bleeding again, was out of her control. The unworthiness she must have felt kept her hiding in a crowd of people and yet her desperation kept her motivated to move forward.
IF I JUST, I'm sure she felt weak, yet in her darkest moment of the unknown she knew who her healer was.
IF I JUST, can touch the hem of His garment I KNOW I will be healed.
IF I JUST, could get through this.
What are you desperate for Jesus to do in your life?
Are you lining up with His word?
IF is a choice and behind that choice a decision is made; Are you going to believe in, trust in, and have faith in God?
Sometimes we ask for healing and when God doesn't give us what we want we get angry at God when God has a purpose for everything and behind everything that He does. He is asking you to simply trust Him and to know that even when You don't understand things He understands. And it's His will to be done. Where is your faith taking you?
The woman felt unworthy yet the desperation she felt to live led in the direction only faith could take her.